Ah-Mond's Nutshell

2005-01-20T16:18:00.000+08:00

if im not wrong, this week is one of the 2 weeks of the whole year which has a long weekend cos this friday is hari raya haji...public hols.

yup..thus i decided to embark on my personal trip to Gunung Datuk and Gunung Angsi, both in negri sembilan. And it is more or less the "last" trekking trip before the shit starts kicking in from next week onwards.

ok..off i go... to Gunung Datuka and Gunung Angsi

perhaps..write a little more when i get back either sat night or sun early morn

bye!!! pooffffff...............

2005-01-19T01:44:00.000+08:00

This is one of my favourite song by Brian Mcknight, inspiring song especially the lyrics. It somehow give us the strength battle thru' the odds against us and never give up.
Hope it will inspire everyone.....

"Win" by Brian Mcknight

Dark is the night
I can battle the storm
Never say die
I've been down this road before
I'll never quit
I'll never lay down, mm
See I promised myself that I'd never let me down

[1] - I'll never give up
Never give in
Never let a ray of doubt slip in
And if I fall
I'll never fail
I'll just get up and try again

Never lose hope
Never lose faith
There's much too much at stake
Upon myself I must depend
I'm not looking for place ashore
I'm gonna win

I'll stop at nothing
There's still a ways to go, oh
Someway, somehow
Whatever it takes, I know
I'll never quit, no no
I'll never go down, mm, mm
I'll make sure they remember my name
A hundred years from now

[Repeat 1]

When it's all said and done
My once in a lifetime will be back again
Now is the time
To take a stand
Here is my chance
That's why I...

[Repeat 1]

Mmm, I'm gonna win

Singapore Tiger Cup 2004 Champions

2005-01-17T01:34:00.000+08:00

Singapore won the tiger cup.. It's a dream come true? haha

Well, i feel that they deserved to win the cup and the match despite of some disastrous and poor refereeing from Asian referees. The Singaporean players played their hearts out and together with the almost 55000 over singaporean fans cheering behind their backs, they persisted and resisted all odds to win the tournament. Not an easy feat but they made it possible.

The National Stadium was a great atmosphere to be in especially for quite match..the tiger cup finals ..2nd leg match especially ur country was leading the 1st leg score and expected to win the 2nd leg on home soil with pride. The 55000 engulfed the small contingent of indonesia fans like the tsunami covering the entire aceh. Unbelieveable, the sea of reds, the roll of the kallang waves around the stadium, the applauses made for every touch a Singaporean players made, the cheers and supports we gave to the players on the pitch and also the kayu-ing and whistling on the referee poor poor refereeing standards. (that's why i always despise asian referees, no guts, no sense of consistency, no experience, i dunno how they can be FIFA certified referees). Well wat matters, Singapore beat Indonesia 2-1 and in aggregate 5-2. A good scoreline to show how much improvement the team has transcended over the years since 1994..the malaysia cup time. And the best thing, Singapore hasnt lost a single match since they started this tiger cup tournament. Creditable.

Well, what i can say, Raddy avranomic and this team of staffs and this players had done Singapore proud tonight, bringing back the cup in style unlike the 1998 cup. They played better soccer though occassionally made stupid mistakes but overall, a spirited team backed by a sea of spontaneous fans..it was indeed a wonderful night for everyone.

i, myself, enjoyed myself. Cheering, Clapping, Boo-ing etcetc with the crowd and with my group of frens who dressed in red. Indeed an experience to be in a full house packed stadium and experiencing the pride and glory salvage by the team.

Well done!!!!

Im back to the same old me again

2005-01-07T02:52:00.000+08:00

finally im recovering and getting back to the same old me again.

i have recovered from my bad illness. It was one bad illness i ever gotten during 2004. It was so pathetic and bad till my whole xmas period was ruined. Couldnt go for my annual jc class gathering, couldnt go to my family gathering, couldnt eat xmas food stuffs and couldnt meet up with my odac pals for dinner plus gift exchange. It was so bad that i was downed with high fever with concurrent aching body which i was bed-ridden temporarily for 2 days, bad tonsilitis which gave me that fever and a bad throat. Then followed by persistent coughs and a temporarily lost of my sense of smell and i lost 4kg within a week. Suxs. However, i managed to recover after consuming an antibiotics whose tablets are $7 per piece as the normal prescribed ones of $2 per piece doesnt work well. Expensive right to treat my tonsilitis inflammation. Sad to say, ordinary ones dont work on me. So disappointing. well i deserved it cos i didnt take care of myself thru' out the months. Late nights, lack of rest and sleep, exams preparation, lack of water and perhaps insufficient exercises accumulated thru' out the months lead to a full bloom of this bad illness on me. Well, thank god i have recovered gradually, my appetite is back and im slowly gaining back weight...oh shit. But it is a good thing im back up again and moving, eating, toking, doing what i want to do. Thank jesus for his blessing.

Well, lots of stuffs happened during 2004, it is hard to describe everything what i have done. The good, the bad stuffs that happened to me etcetc but on due cause, it definitely brought me back sweet gd old memorises which deserved to be safekeep and treasured in my mind or rather in my head.

to summarise briefly about wat i have done during 2004
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Jan-May: Into my 2nd sem of engineering year 1 course
Feb : Kena sabo-ed to be OAC'04 publicity head
Mar: ODAC booth for nus openhse
Late apr : Went gunung stong, ayam and baha with a group of odac pple
May : Got into electrical engineering (suxs)
Early Jun : Backpacked the gulf of thailand for 2 weeks, went diving at Ko tao
Jun : Preparation for OAC based on my publicity job
Took my IPPT at bedok camp, maintained gold for the 3rd year running since nsf days.
Late Jun: OAC'04...a success indeed over expectation
July : ODAC welcome tea and AGM, Post OAC production of photo n video cd
Aug - Nov: Began my 1st year 1st sem in electrical engineering (but 2nd year in nus), suffered
from c++ prg like mad till im growing older each day.
Was roped in to help out in adjam programme cell (lots of hard work, reccing etc)
Sep: Participated in AHM'04
Dec: Drove up to malacca with family (my first proper outing with them since after army)
Went Berkelah falls with a few odac frens
Back in singapore to settle Adjam programme stuffs (lots of problems based on budget but
we made it possible)
Badly ill after adjam dry run and during the whole xmas period
Adjam dry run and the actual Adjam event (a success and we made it despite all odds)
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So basically, it aint nothing much what i have done during 2004 but it is a year i have faced quite a bit of obstacles and conflicts which made me learnt what the correct-n-wrong doings, the lesson out of it and hopefully i can amended myself and change for the better as time goes by.

Now for adjam, it is one bitter-sweet moment on what i gonna say about it. I gonna keep it short and sweet this time. Well, we faced many odds, the conflicts, the miscommunications or rather the lack of communication among the heads, the subcomm-ers, the helpers etc. And perhaps the inexperiences faced by the comm. Well, these are part and parcel of life and of doing/organising stuffs. We took up the challenge and deal with it, solve it, handled it and execute it. Though this adjam faced real budget problems but it was one big challenge (though it was a headache that many changes to the program has to be done many times, it's aint easy but we managed to come out with stuffs to succumb over it and we made it possible imptly) we faced and it was one big challenge we have to deal with it. It is because it aint easy changing our months of preparation and recces within a week or so. It seems impossible but then it is possible if we maintained our heads and deal the challenge in the right direction and right state of mind. If at this point of time, everyone of us give up, it will be losers in the making and it will be a failure and moreover this event was co-collaborated with SIM SMU n NTU. Though fingers had been pointing here n there, we nearly lost our cool and composure (well nonetheless, esp me as a so-called senior among the peeps), but what's the point, will it solve our problems by blaming and shooting words of displeasure here nt here. No, obviously. Well, what i can say in short, we deal-ed it with faith and determination, we get our heads minds and souls together, thought of several solutions and sorted them out and challenged the seemingly impossible. What i can say, we made it, it was a success. Within such low budget, the actual adjam event went thru' smoothly and everyone of us enjoyed ourselves and we managed to execute our activities successful. Well done adjamm-ers, im proud of what we have done despite all odds which we faced, odds that were against us due to many facts. But the fact we have succeed, let's give ourselves a pat and close this chapter of adjam. I myself, seriously, enjoyed adjam. Interacting with the young jc kids really a joy. Disturbing them, suan siaoing them, cocking with them, making them hype up for the activities were some stuffs i myself enjoyed doing as an activity ic / station master. But paiseh to jason and joanna for making u two to walk the trek twice..haha..poor jason. Paiseh to skee and cherling from bearing the mosquitoes attacked at Jelutong Tower and the bad weather. Paiseh to Theophane and louis for accompanying the monkeys at the entrance of rifle range entrance to the trek...haha..i bet u two have a monkey hell of a time over there. Well, thanks for the help for the trekking, without u 6 pple, i think the trek will not be able to take place. But seriously, the jc odacians were real too fast for the trek, they run but i bet cjc odacs fly..haha. And of cos thanks to my partner gary who helped me in at the start of MacRitchie reservoir holding area thru' out the whole sleepless wet n cold night..haha. Of cos, other activities were successful carried out nonetheless, well done peeps. And lastly, i wun forget what happened to me during battle royale in sentosa. I was stacked like a break by the cjc odac guys. I was fooled into taking photo with my juniors from nyjc then kena muai-zhi and dunked by them into the sea. And also SRJC odac who trapped me in the sea and re-dunked me. Well done guys and gals..haha.. And i want to thank my fellow NUS odac pals for not saving me that evening, but standing there laughing. Thanks a lot huh...haha. In short, adjam objectives were more or less met, we made new frens from other unis and of cos the various jc odacs, we show how unite and how close our odac units can be. Thus, adjam closed its chapter on a gd and hight note for everybody involved in it. =)

Wow, i cant imagine i have written quite a lot, actually i was quite lazy to blog so much. Perhaps i will do a gd and long blogging once a while.

Xmas to me was a pathetic one, missed my annual jc class gathering on xmas eve (sorry pals!) due to my illness, missed my family annual xmas gathering at aunt's mary place and missed my gd odac pals xmas gathering cum present exchanging at marche. Well, i hope i can replace what i have missed during xmas 2005...heehee

The java earthquake cum tsunami incident which happened one day after xmas. I was quite shocked and saddened that more than 150,000 pple died due to this castrophobic disaster. Of cos, a small percentage of death cums from signapore. I was really thankful that im lived in singapore, im a singaporean. It is because we are protected by the big country like indonesia (which lies along side the fault lines of the moving earth crust) and malaysia and philipines. Thus, such disasters will be shielded from us. How fortunate we are. However, the innocent deaths were a great shocked and saddening to everyone around the region. No one expected such this would happen with a great force within a short short period of time without any alert warning. Well, no words can describe the emotions of family who lost their loved ones there especially the foreigners who came over to asia from their countries which are so far away for holidays. No words can describe the tragedy which happened. Pictures tell everything, feelings and expression reveal it out. Therefore, i hope God will bless those who survived and those who are yet being found, who have the glimmer of hope to survive under the rubbles or somewhere out there. God bless them with hope of light and the hope of determination and faith to Survive.

Well,i guess im going to end soon, tired liao, it's almost 4am liao and im blogging..hahaha.. Surprising right.

Last issue, many of my frens asked me whether i have a gf or not or whether im attached or not.. The answer is No.
well, i cant control when i will be attached. To be frank, im enjoying what im doing now, of cos i dun want to get a gf for the sake of getting one. Of cos everyone of us likes to be love, everyone of us likes to love somebody, everyone of us likes to express our feelings for that someone we like. But to hastily love is bad choice to make it out just for the sake of having love. The gal i want to win her heart, is the gal i gonna love and like and protect and be together for the rest of my life sincerely. So as the saying goes, let all be natural, let nature takes its own course, hope chances and opportunities comes for me when the time is right, comes for me to make the right choice, comes for me to know that special someone out there (of cos i dunno where..definitely in spore lah) who deserved my sincere love and understandings. Haha, though im not getting younger anymore? isnt 22 or 23 young? but i guess we have many things we have yet to accomplish. Security and stability of ourselves is a must. Yup, not saying i have high expectations, but of cos to me, communication and understanding are one essential factor to a relationship i want to have,not only love itself. And for sure, beauty lies in the eye of the beholder. i bet to differ about having high expectations. Becos i have to consider the fact of myself, am i that good? what i have to offer to the gal that i like (i myself having nothing to offer but sincerity from my heart)? i cannot be selfish for my thoughts at one moment. Of cos there are likings at first look, crushes at heart, infatuation but this is part of life and part of growing up process, part of emotional feelings which none of us can control and forsake it. Thus, it is a win-lose situation for both sides. Sonow, what i can do is to hope God will bless me and let me know and find that special someone out there for me. I believe, with the faith, that special someone will appear. =)

Well to end.....to end my cock but "serious" cock..haha.

Time flies, year 2004 has just ended and close the 22nd chapter on my life during this period. And the year 2005 has just re-opened a new chapter of my life..the 23rd one..pretty soon.
HOpefully this new year will bring new hopes to me, new dreams to come alive, new resolutions to fulfill and new challenges for me to face and upkeep... till then... God bless...

a sad and sickly christmas 2004

2004-12-25T11:56:00.000+08:00

im still sick

i cant go for my annual jc class gathering becos im sick

i cant eat what i want, cos i have no appetite, all i can do is to stare the food on the table in my aunt's house

i cant go out and hang around in town, shopping or just to soak into the christmas atomosphere

so many things i cant do

and the best thing is that i have been sick since mon

and also the best thing is that results will be out today in a few hours time

wat a way for me to mournfully celebrate my xmas...

2004-12-22T09:28:00.000+08:00

it is damn miserable to be sick. And getting high fever, throat sore due to inflamed tonsils and aching body at the same time are the worst. No appetite for the food i seen my family eating, what is available for me to consume are medicine; tablets tablets and more tablets., water water and more water...

Perhaps i have to fault myself for the lack of sleep and lack of water. I had only 2 hrs within 3 days..can u believe that... i didnt sleep thru' out adjam dry run...

now the sickness comes out in full force and in full bloom on me.

bed-ridden, sleeping with aches all over, head spinning....how i wish these will be gone within a minute

i was thinking quite a lot when i was in bed resting. Is it an ominous sign that bad gonna happen? tat's why i gotten sick at this point of time. Does this mean that something bad gonna happen on me?...i afraid to say yes but it is just that instinct that makes my mind thinks a lot. The results will be out this sat on xmas day,does this mean i gonna fail some of my modules and retake them? so many frightening thoughts just erupted into my mind unstoppably. I just cant help.

well, i guess i just have to rest more, get my health back into normal condition and look forward wat lies ahead for me..

I dream.......

2004-12-14T01:44:00.000+08:00

In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit’s there where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There’s a spark
That can light the world around me
And open door where I am sure dreams are

Doesn’t matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
‘Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart
Just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that’s in me
I dream
I dream

There’s a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There’s no defeat if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There’s a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on when worlds have come apart

Doesn’t matter rich or poor
All the things you’ve done before
‘Cause the race is all about believing in yourself

I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart
Just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that’s in me
I dream
I dream

Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart
Just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that’s in me
I dream
I dream.....

2004-12-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

This is one rusty blog ever made known to pple so far..hahaha
I guess i better write something....

life aint smooth flowing for me especially on studies..but i have been trying, fighting the slackism out of me...

Yeah, for the past 1 month or so, i had been busy preparing for my exams which turned out to be quite a disappointment. I never studied so hard so far in my varsity life, staying in from day to night, isolating myself away from home and my devilish-tempting laptop and bed. Then in the end, the hopeful turned out to be rather unhopeful, my performance wasnt up to my expectation with the possibilities of dabaoing my mods. Why? Why i had to be kangqiong till it gotten over my head. Well, what has been done had been done, i cant do anything but to wait and see, hope and pray that this year's xmas present will be a happier one that i cleared all my mods. Hope that the moderation curve will do me some help and give me a chance to work hard for the next coming sem. Hope God will mercilessly bless me.....

Well, this december hols is rather a short short one because my exams ended late. And the weather is pretty wet nowadays, guess it is the big monsoon period huh.

Drove up to malacca with my family, spent a few days there visiting my aunty and driving around the town and along the coastal area. Most of time, i could say that eating was the main activity for me and my family..haha. Food food food and more food.. then i realised, damn, i have put on weight..cant imagine that..but it is true, after approximately 2 mths of minimum workout and exercise and running, what can i ask for more.

Returning back to Singapore was a rather reluctant one, cos the moment my car gotten out of the tuas custom, what i can see are bulidings bulidings bulidings..everywhere so developed..of cos im proud to be a singaporean..this is where i truely call home, however, the feeling of the fast pace life in singapore rather makes me wanna remain out of the country for a time being, to soak myself down into a slow pace cultural life elsewhere, get whatever stressful mindful stuffs out of my head, to refresh myself. Guess perhaps the pressure of the meritocratic education system in nus really took a toll on me till i was go somewhere peaceful and quiet, relax myself.

A day later, i embarked on a small little trip with 5 of my odac frens to Berkelah waterfalls. A simple waterfall trek, nothing much, just to admire the nature and the beauty of the 8 tier cascaded waterfalls. Weather aint good, raining all the way, well, it was predictable as kuantan is a coastal town along the east coast of west malaysia. However, no matter how bad the weather is, it was an enjoyable trip with fun and laughter, what matters is the company of frens that ive been with. During the trip, i missed my bata slippers..haha..cos my teva sandals failed me on the rocks due to insufficient stability till i have to trek bare footed along the way up to the watefall.. Nevertheless, it's a gd trip

Wanted to go elsewhere but time is factor, moreover i have my committment to adventure jamboree where NUS is the main organiser and whether i can get pple to go with me or not. All these factors just do not allow me to do much travelling around..well, i'll still have the chance in the future bah..haha.

For me, i want to do a diversified of activities like a mixture of backpacking, diving, trekking etcetc and not isolating myself to specialise in a type of outdoor activity. Guess i want to be a more versatile "jack of all trades, master of none" sort of outdoor-er..

Here are the places i hope and want to visit during my varsity days:

1)Gunung Rijani in Lombok, indonesia
2)Death Railway and hellfire pass in Kanchanaburi/near thai-burma border
3)Ang kor wat in Siam Reap,cambodia
4)Mount kinabalu in Sabah
5)Gunung Ledang = Mount Ophir, Segamat,Johor
6)Pulau Redang, Pulau Timon, Pulau Aur, Pulau Perhentians, eastern coast of Msia
(for my leisure diving perhaps)
7)Rainbow Falls, Pahang,msia
8)Wat Arun (temple of dawn), Grand Palace in Bangkok
9)Ko Similans ( for my diving)
10)Sabah and Sarawak backpacking

so many places and counting etc....all need $$$$$$..

But definitely these are the places i would love to visit and i would love to capture the beautiful nature and landscape using my camera (of cos i would like to save up and get myself another higher-ended camera).

Yup, okie, i guess i just stop here, save some energy for the writings on some other days bah..hahahaha
in short...i wanna nua.....

2004-11-04T13:11:00.000+08:00

19 days to exam...scary huh....everything seems so fast-going, so unstable...

And the worst is that this agony is prolonged a little longer as EE pple will be the last to finish the exams in Engin faculty... Pathetic sia...

Guess when my exam ends? 2nd dec !!!!!.....

so adieus amigos...i wun be updating this blog as i promised before...badly needed to try to stay focus "mugging" .....cos the word "dabaoing" keeps ringing in my ears just like a leechy sticky mother cow with a ringing ding dong bell below her neck, keeps following you...

okok..take care pple...see ya when the wind has stopped blowing me away and when i have bulit a pair of wings to fly back.... ^huh^..^simi sai^...well as usual.. ^no link^..jus.. ^crap^

ciao!

2004-10-18T02:50:00.000+08:00

"hugh anderson...beware...watch ur up down left right centre..dun let me see you or else i will squeeze and rip ur balls off just like what ur c++ prg did to mine...."

why did i blurt out the remarks above...It's simple..all thanks to C++ prg (just like C prg) which has been giving me endless agonies, endless headaches, endless mental torture, endless sleepless nights, endless frustrations, endless blurness which left me smelling the SoC profs farts ( wonder why they teach so fast and throw super high end questions to pple who barely learn the basics...though there are other geniuses), endless complaints among mouths, endless sian-ness so on and so forth. In short, whenever there is prg, there is hell. real real HELL....

what a weekend...wasted away all thanks to this C++ prg lab graded assignment, where the question totally left me appalled and stunned. U expect an average student whose basics are mere basics to step into the world of programs churning around like a jackpot machine, and the stuffs are taught 1 chapter per week and within 2/1/2 hour lect in total. It's ridiculous and it's syllabus is totally so much like stuffing a sheep into a turkey. And it is credited to an amazing number of 5 MCs !!!!.. what the heck. Im an electrical engineering student in the making, not a computer science or computer engineering student in the making. I come to this course not because i wanna be a programmer but i wanna deal with circuits, signals, electronics and stuff. We does not make the cut to be a programmer as it is not our cup of teh-O.

Well, what to do, life in EE suxs mainly due to the c++ prg module, the way they teach, the way they introduce and promote to us...and the expectations they demand.

however, before the weekend begins, of cos, had some relaxation. Did the night cycling recce with alvin and pals for adjam. Gotta knoe 2 new frens from SMU odac that night. Pretty frenly gers...tat's a positive note showing that the working relationship between NUS odac and other unis odac will be good.

after that, prg began from sat till sun. barely had a few hours of sleep in between. Finally, got some simple outputs, submitted then i heck it. Met up with alvin, nicky and daizhong to play lan at katong. First time played lan for more than 2 hrs...lan is not really my game but just for the fun and destress perhaps, then had supper at bedok blk 85 market..it's been quite a while since i last went over there for supper. GOod food over there...

ok..it's late...damn..c++ lab practical exams is just around the corner..this coming saturday.
It is another die die situation, i will be left smelling the farts of the question again, left stunned in front of the monitor etcetc. And also because of this PE, i cant embark to Cheekong+Sophia+Alvin (albin) short trek to Rainbow falls in malaysia..where u can see the rainbow across the waterfall at the certain period of the year. SUCKS....

kk..koonz-ing time

2004-10-11T23:26:00.000+08:00

Yup... guess i might not be able to blog for a few days coz this week gonna be a busy week, 2 bloody labs : 1 EE electronics lab to deal and another more hellish lab to overcome which is my week 9 graded c++ prg lab. And i have a quiz this coming friday. What a week it gonna be...

Well, i will try to blog whenever im free, the next topic i gonna blog is Emotions based on my 2 mths absence till now. It gonna be a long blog, so much to write. Emotions, yet at times so expressive but undescribeable when it takes a twist. Ironic isnt it. Well, it's human feelings, it is dependable how we express and feel it. No one can understand well other than ourselves. Guess we have to deal it with sensitivity comes into place.

kk..shall stop there

to be continue....................................

Episode 2 : ...2nd serving...anyone?

2004-10-06T03:32:00.000+08:00

Well well well..tuesday has just ended for me. And it is my first time...after so long..i attended the whole full day of school till 6pm. Genes lecture was as usual less than half filled..i wonder why i go? why not view webcast?... However, as usual i was late for tutorials, my fren alvin couldnt wake up in time to meet me (surprisingly i woke up slightly earlier..haha), so we decided to forfeit the first tutorial at 9am.. Actually we could make it but kind of late, so decided to stay out and waited for it to end before we attended the next one. This is my normal standard procedure since year 1...haha..mischievious me..naughty me..no wonder such attitude didnt get me the grades i want or perhaps God is punishing me subtly. I tried to change but somewhat somehow, the slight tendency is still there. Anyway, it was just another ordinary school day for me...

in the midst of my work and also in the midst of my half-dead look, suddenly my mind was thinking what should i do when the december holidays arrive. I had been thinking for this while of making trips to nearby asean countries for a short backpacking trip or perhaps for some short treks. Anyway, adjam will be held at the last week of december, before that there will be dry runs, so i expect things will heighten to a much more busy mode when it draw closer. Moreover, sem 1 holidays is not very long either. So i decided and hope to go on a short trip. Talked to sophia about it, there are lots of places we wanna go; kanchanaburi to see the death railway which i longing to go, bangkok to visit the grand palace and wat arun - temple of dawn, similan islands to dive, ko tao to get my advanced diving cert, climb mount kinabalu etcetc...so many places to go but i wonder how i gonna get the $$$$$ ....haha.. All in all, from my bank loh, from the money that i saved.. Well, i feel that university is the time that we should try to go for short trips because it is only this period when we have plentiful of time to spare. Well, let's see how it goes, i diedie must go for at least one trip...preferably personal trip...lol..

okok..enuff of my crap..

i shall continue my 2nd segment of my thoughts ..
today's topic i shall pick on is L-O-V-E....love..... steaming right...shiok huh...haha..relax pple dont get too hot over this topic..it aint special... but well..for those pple who has very high urge or watever...i have tongkat ali or cajit fatimah to spare...wanna have some??..hahaha..just kidding...
But please..to those who consume these, please..although they are natural substances, but dont overdose, hospital very far away hor....

= LOVE =

Well, love to me ,for now, is absence in the air. Nothing special, nothing extraordinary to be listed out. Love, there is so many type of love. Of cos, family love, parental love, siblings love still revolve around me every single day. As for relationship sort of love, what can i say...my radar is still actively finding and spotting for the right one. What can you expect from an engineering student whose faculty is wholefully..at least 75% or rather 85% occupied by guys. Even the remaining percent which belongs to the gal's population, the choices quite limited...haha. Yah, in engin, we dont have a fixed class where we can interact or socialise thru' out the duration of our study. And foreign students tend to overwhelm us at times esp PRCs. Yup, for me, i kind of luckless. Year 1 expecting some miracle to happen...maybe a few not bad looking ones, dont say those super chios one, but in my eyes, they applease me . ..the situation turned out to be a boo boo disappointment. Why? seriously speaking, all thru out my years studying from sec sch till jc till now, my expectation of such basic demands was pretty low, im willing to settle for 2nd best or 3rd best or so on n so forth..but somehow somewhat either im not destined to enjoy and being with it or luck is not on my side...am i born under a unlucky star?..ha. Over the years, not saying that im shy (indeed im...dont be fool by my outageous, garang actions..when it comes to gals..it is a different situation..i guess..u pple should noe that i blushes), i feel that i seriously lack of chances and opportunities to meet and interact with gals..ha. Some suggested joining ccas to boast up chances of enlarging social circle etc. Well, definitely if i gonna join one of these, my main aim is not becos of wanting to noe gals, but also mainly becos i wanna noe more frens and enjoy the activity that im keen on. That's why i joined ODAC...to make more frens and to be involved in whatever activities i can be in. I dun like to be labelled as a ji gou pek or lao ti gou whatever because it is never my number 1 intention to have such thoughts. So, as i told myself, just follow the smooth, let it be as naturally it can be, if the chance is present there for me to noe somebody or to like somebody, so be it, go for it, if not, just be normal and carry on what im doing.

There was once, it happened back in secondary school, i had this crush on this cedarian gal in my mavis tuition class. And this is more than a crush, it is a long secret admiration for this gal ..guess how long?...it is 4 long years since sec 1. I still remember her name and of cos i knew her fren, hint..she is currently year 4 pharmacy student. At that time, i wanted to know her but i have no guts to approach her, perhaps there were too many of her frens around and also those marist boys around who loved disturbing them. And also im quite inferior to myself due to my appearance...inferior complexity?.. i was quite rounded like a watermelon when i was in primary sch till sec 3 when things started to change..kind of the turning point of my life. Yup, back to her, she was one girl that i couldnt take my eyes off her. Every lesson i would take a quick glance at her, the feeling was different from the normally crush sort of feelings ( u pple maybe skeptical about emotions at that time as im still a growing up teenager). Well im sure of myself...because it happened all the way up to sec 4. It was kind of coincidence because somewhat somehow we were in the same tuition class for 4 years... I remember when i left the tuition centre midway during sec 4, didnt have the chance to look at her anymore. But thankfully i knew her fren. So when i was in vjc, i asked her fren about her whereabouts.. After knowing some info of her, one day, i logged on mirc, then i entered this channel belonging to her jc, and baammm... i started toking to this gal whom turned up to be her... i couldnt believe it...out of so many many many people, the probability of finding her was so slim and that night..i got the chance to tok to her. Wow..imagine the feeling. However, it was a short term thingy, after a period of time, we lost contact and didnt tok since then. When i was in NUS one day last year, i was in science canteen, i met her fren who im still in contact with, i saw this gal which looks so familiar, just like her, and realised it was her for sure. I realised ...at that moment..how both of us really grew up over the years...situation changes... imagine once we were kids till now as young adults. The feeling i was had is definitely gone..those were the adolescence years... however, of cos if im given a chance, i would like to her noe...even if she is attached or wat...be frens is better than none. Therefore, after reading what i have written, i feel that having a crush doesnt brings out the meaning of love, it is an artificial sort of feeling, a temporary sort of feeling. But true love comes from right inside ur heart, unexplanable feelings, so secret that u will long for, persist for with full admiration. This is one true feelings i ever had for a gal..for 4 years...from there..i understand what is true love..

of cos i had very crushes, who dont? im guy, having crushes are a norm as part of our growing up stage, and on how we deal with emotions. There maybe some gals whom can remain as my crush because i know it will never happen but there are some whom the crushes i had, turned out to express my true feelings. See how complicated love is. Why things cant be as simple as it seems? Why the human minds that to play or toy around with it, why we just juxtapose our emotions or feelings straight? Basically for me, feelings are vulnerable, it hurts when it is provoked. It takes time to heal when it being hurt but the scar will never fade. That's why i told myself..would i myself like to be in such a situation... Definitely it is a nono answer..who wants to? ...

So far, after failed attempt goin after the gals that i liked ( over the years..hmm..kind of like i tried twice ?), i have decided to let things take its own course. Kind of tired. why not i just wait for the right boat to dock the harbour for me to hop in... And being single is so much better afterall, no worries of the string attached etc. Of cos, the feeling of being lonely, the feeling of lacking someone to support u behind ur back, to be there for you, to cheer u up when ur down etcetc are all rampant. That's why frens are impt in our lives right. I never doubt myself, but perhaps my self confidence in portraying my image. Well, im a person who will go all out for the person i love, the sacrifices that i will make etcetc to make what it takes to maintain the relationship. I dont like fooling around, toying feelings, it suxs, the feelings of discomfort and "not nice" feelings will stuck me hard in my conscience. Moreover, my expectations are never high, i feel that one should view each other in each other eyes and not based on other pple opinions. Imptly, what u see is what u feel. This is how love should be.

After sharing so much of thoughts with you pple, i hope u pple dont be stunned for the stuffs that i mentioned..haha.wordy right

So far, these 2 months, things were pretty normal as usual, nothing special has happened to me. What i know is that my current EE class has 20 guys and 4 gals and out of 4 gals, 2 are pRCs... how pathetic..haha. by comparison, i think ME gals are much better than EE...hahahaha. But it is the true for now.

What i can do now is to hope, hope that something loveable will fall on me...hahaha.. Yup..love is a part of life..

"LOVE is something that nobody can truly explain,but can only be felt"
"If you think that love hurts than you've never felt true love."

yup....that's about it for my 2nd sequel...kk..u pple go take a break..rest ur eyes bah..hhaha

cheers!

a yearning return to what i left behind.......

2004-10-05T01:05:00.000+08:00

Wow..i cant believe that i didnt update my blog for approximately 2 months liao. Amazing isn't it. U pple may ask.. why? how come? Guess im lazy lah...like what angie labelled me..a walking hippo under the sun.. And also, sometimes, my IE hanged on me by shudding down after i typed so much..i will @#$%^&*.. And imptly, busy with work..since when an engin student so free? Maybe pple like me slacking around perhaps. Well, another possible reason, as u pple noe, i very shy one...oops..haha.

I am wondering whether are you people still waiting impatiently or patiently to read my "when is it coming" blog..haha. No worries, ur perseverance and patience will pay off graciously. Therefore, i wanna announce, im back just for this period of time to update my blog.

2 months may seem short, however 2 months = 60 odds days = 1440 hours = 86400 mins = 5184000 seconds. It is quite "long" afterall..haha. Well, lots things have happened within these 2 months, it is rather impossible for me to type out everything in this blog, or else it gonna be a thesis for me or a short story of my life these 2 months. Then all of you pple who are reading it will definitely yawned, fall asleep and close the IE browser for sure. Therefore, i decided to pen my thoughts about my 2 months of absence segment by segment. It would be better for me so that i can recollect my thoughts properly and for you pple, it would be better as you pple will understand what i write..

The segments that i gonna break into will be : School, Personal, Emotions, Social, Activity.
These will be the five components that i will touch on day by day.

= SCHOOL =

Well, im a year 2 electrical engineering undergraduate. Before i chose the course that i wanna be in, im not sure what i wanna take up. Every single course: Civil, Mechanical, Electrical have their pros and cons. And im not sure what im interested in, that's the dilemma me and my gd fren alvin faced. Then after much discussion, we decided to take up electrical engineering besides knowing that c++ programming module will be a damn bloody killer of all time. Guess im more into electronics and circuitry stuffs bah. Though mechanical engineering seems quite slack in terms of workload but the modules like thermodynamics, statics stuffs doesnt seem to appeal to me except the chance to specialise on aeronautical engineering which is one course that i always wanted to do but it's aint easy. I never know that recently NTU introduced this course to the recent intake...damn. Engineering a plane and fixing it seems fun and challenging..haha. I wonder why i didnt take up RSAF AEO scholarship...gd pay, gd prospect, stable job, guess i don't really like military or regimental stuffs (ever since i was tekkaned quite cham during BMT). Well, so we chose EE. As usual, i heard from seniors saying that EE gonna be xiong due to the heavy workload and hectic schedule. So i was kind of sianz from what i had heard. Wrong choice? well it is at point of no return.

Well, sch began, i told myself to work hard, try to get back my momentum which i had lost it after i entered army. History repeated itself again, im back to my slackish and nuaish mode. Lectures quite dry huh, haha, guess im famous for dozing off during lects. Take for example, there were some lectures that i dozed off. When i was sleeping, my head tend to tilt back even i bow down, then at times, it would shake the whole row of chairs, thankfully im sitting behind, the last row. And thankfully i didnt snorl..haha..unlike those times i was in law library, it was so quiet that i was too tired that i snorl a little during my nap there. The law student thought that there is a wild boar, hippo or a pig roaming in the library. I remember there was once, during c++ tut lesson, my indian tutor was so boring, i couldnt catch his accent, the only word i can grab is the word "easy". Whatever stuffs he did, he always mentioned "easy" but the problem was, what the hell is he toking about? he shooted his words out like speeding bullets. So automatically i dozed off, alvin whom sat besides me, also dozed off, then both our heads tilted towards each other. Baam... our heads collided..then that moment we both woke up..

These 2 months aint smooth, lots of labs esp c++, tuts, assignments and stuffs..i wondering how come i can still be able to slack bits here n there. Well, perhaps i need some live or some break from studies. Quite disappointed recently, didnt fare that well in my midterm, carelessness caused me..whywhywhy.. And others, maybe i didnt study hard enuff. Could it be soccer? No..cant be, soccer is the only thing that i can rely on, rely my leisure on, something that i can keep myself occupied. I guess it is myself. Wasnt too serious about work, wasnt too serious into get into serious studies. I worry for my future at times, wondering what type of degree will i graduate, will it be an honour's degree or a normal degree, of cos i would hope for an honours degree since mine is a 4 years course. But judging from what i have done, i fear that my results for this sem may fall like waterfall, moreover my cap aint good, basically it is below average. How? How can i salvage myself back, redeem myself back. Really need to get my self-discipline and self-confidence. Is it possible? Well, im sure what i wanna be in the future; either an engineer or a teacher. But spore is a meritocractic society..none to say..NUS too. Though studies is a small fraction of life on the whole but for now, it is an equinessential factor for now. Well, i noe that no matter how slim the hope is, there is still hope, i did told myself, never give up, fight till the end, do what i feel is right, do what i can, just be myself, play the game. Hopefully these will stick to my mind as i sloth thru the days and months and years.

Now is the 8th week, time flies, cant believe that sem 1 gonna over soon with the exams hanging and dangling like houseflies somewhere out here. Hope that everything will turn out fine, nothing more nothing less

" i believe a mustard seed can move a mountain"
" hope is not determine how small or how big u r, it is how positive u r, how much faith u have in urself "

That's about it pple...long? haha...await for segment 2 soon.....

ciao!

2004-08-06T00:46:00.000+08:00

Thursday....

what constructive stuff did i do today..the 4th day of the week...

basically as i promised arpan i will come for my engin class's outing to sentosa to play vball. Didnt join them a few ocassion to sentosa and to the chalet either i have something on or due to odac stuffs. Yup, i was kind of missing out some of the fun. I feel that my class C05/06 is one unique university class that i had. They are a fun bunch of pple. Comparing to other engin classes, i feel that our class unity is very gd, we have very gd bonding and interaction with each other. Lessons like tutorial or labs were always interesting, jokes/craps flying around in the classroom without doubt, making tutorials more light hearted or else it will be so dead, so boring, the whole atmosphere will be much mugg-ish n nerd-ish. Hope our bondage and unity will continue despite we will be going to different courses next year onwards....

There are very interesting people like
1) Jonathon - the ^machine gun^ aka GPMG mouth with his rooster spiky hair...his craps, his
jokes, his quick thinking rubbish...never fail to entertain us...
2) Daniel - another one...^chicken backside^ mouth...anyone similar to jonathon...who can shoot
out craps n jokes as fast as a speeding bullet..both made a gd couple or combination...
3) Arpan - the muscular guy in our class..the gym freak...another joker too with his hilarious
outburst of laughter...a rather good pal of mine i had in class... beware of his
moving/bouncing muscular bulging "Tits"...
4) Jack - Mr "PINK" pather-man..who loves to dress up in pink..dress up as in wearing pinkish
tshirts...our MR metrosexual...another joker too...one good bballer...who loves
bouncing balls...haha..(arpan beware of urs...u noe wat i mean..)
5) Nicky - the R-rated guy..my gd fren since we were in vjc....he was the one who first blurted
out "....porngraphy in our HDB community...." in front of the old naggy saggy CTW
tutor Ms Peggy Chua....which left us stunned..he is another joker..but not hardcore.
6) Yibin - Mr Jonathan's sidekick....wonder whether when will he show his power just like Jon..
7) Yangbin - mr ^Prg^ GOd....one nice guy..who always late for tutorial and sleep in class like
nobody business...imagine he is late n then still sleep...halleluyah to him... who can
solve cprg like drinking water and shitting out smoothly...
8) Zhai ning - our Mr ^PRC^ of the year....who pour lots of sun tanning lotion all over him which
left him glistening under the hot sun in sentosa....walking oil...he is one chinese guy
who dont sounds like he is from china...instead most of us thought he is from the
states.
9) Mindy - miss little ^loudhailer^ or ^radio^....dont underestimate her for her small build...she
is more powerful than we thought...worse still..she is an ARSENAL fan...she dont noe
wat is death..esp im a MANU diehard fan... her voice is as loud as an amplifier which
can penetrate many walls esp great wall of china cant tahan her sound waves. Not
only this, it is as piercing as an eagle shriek...it will crack not only the windows but
also it will make a crack on the roads, making LTA to spend money every mth to
maintain and patch it up. Her fist...though small..one slap u will fly till u will find urself
in hospital the next day..wondering why... Her kick, is as powerful n hard as a horse
kick, one kick will land u into IMH..so just avoid letting her aim ur head.. avoid the
front pelvic area and backside..cos our the recent governmental baby bonus..so just
play safe lah... She is one cute little ger lah..oops...squeeking here n there...hahhaha
10) Lay kiat - another side kick of mindy..but not so hardcore...

these are some of them....of cos there are others like zhanghua,aidi,fanli,shangyuan,yuanshuo.

Yup...really enjoyed their company in class...so at times, kind of regretted not joining them. So this time, i decided to break free from whatever schedule and join them for the fun. Meet up at Harbour front to eat lunch over there n then travel to sentosa..At Sunset bay,we played vball and captain's ball under the scorching hot sun... of cos, phototaking etcetc...Then we left for town...taka..where we ate our dinner at Crystal Jade xiao long bao restaurant...ate our la mian aka " Pull noodle" which jonathon interpretted. Then we hand around at border after which we decided to head hm.. with Dan fetching mindy and jinghui back...while me and jon tagging along in Yibin's car..and Arpan.."sprinting" to yishun to meet his fren for a chat....haha..

yeah...wat a day i had...it's been quite a while since i last went to sentosa..well..i can say that i have enjoyed myself with some hot fun and hot laughters...

okok...tat's about it..tired..gonna sleep and later wake up watch MANU vs URAWA at 4am..then at 9.30am meeting my fren for a jog....

gd nite blog.....

2004-08-04T23:45:00.000+08:00

It's wednesday.... It's midweek liao.. what can i say... time flies loh, time and tide wait for no man no woman no boy no girl ..NO ONE to be precise.. So what i can say is to live our lives to the fullest, do what we do best, eat what we love to eat most, love whatever we can love best etcetc. That's our lives, no one can determine its worth much more than we ourselves could. So what it is wednesday, thursday or friday or any other days, it will be another day when we grow a day older, a day wiser, a day more matured than the previous day, and embark into a new page of our lives.

let me briefly say what i did today.
Simply, met up with skee,alvin,carolyn,wenyan,keith,kelvin at bedok CC to play basketball. I was late! I was kind of tired out the night before not only due to me watching MANU vs PSV ( i watched till 60th min then i slept..boring match) but i feel that my body is feeling a little lethargic from those joggings, little workouts, not enuff rest etc. So i was even kind of a little tired when i played bball with them...haha..is it an excuse to say that i played bad bball? Hmmm...used to be a bball freak last time until j1 thenafter i kind of lost touch with bball and switched more into soccer. Used to be an inclined bball player yah, used to have a neighbourhood team at my area but disbanded after most of us went to jcs and such. As such, my skills had deterioted and became rusty, but of cos, i still play once in a while leisurely if there is. However, im not a fantastic player, there were many hyper bball freaks out there bouncing on the court.

Meanwhile, have been asking Woman to help me settle the bidding on n off till it ends. NUS damn troublesome, introducing the bidding system, following the US educational system. As you know, we singaporeans possessed kiasuiasm in us, these NUS students bloody jammed the whole NUS server which make the cors bidding slow and slackish. Why? scare the module run away ar, run away then take another one lah. Scare server walk away ar, walk where? the stupid server is so squarish and fat and heavy, where can it go?! Scare cant get a place in the module slot, they think first place got first prize ar, what? gold bar ar..i give them 'black gold' ar. Can't they relac a little, everything so kang qiong, it's good to be anticipating but too much of kang qiong-ness is unhealthy. ..they think wat..kang qiong is like eating kang kong...siao! eat too much become king kong...then i sit at one corner and 'arm choe'..... ^crap^

After that, i went to ghim moh market to meet yangbin for lunch, thenafter i went to his house to check out our OAC video editing. Looking thru' the clips really makes me reminise the fun times we had during OAC. Me and Angelin were bursting into laughters on n off. Quite a complicated and tedious process for what i can say, especially we have to rearranged so many video clips accordingly to the respective days and activities and only yangbin knows how, im just present to assist him on the selection n my opinions. Definitely, we want to make it as professional as possible but time doesnt permit us to do so, as for now, seriously, i hope that yangbin can try his best and finish it before odac welcome tea and then burn them into the cdrs, so that i packaged them and distribute. Of cos, on yangbin's part, i understand it aint easy, he has his own life to spent, he has his side projects to fulfill, and he lacks of sleep. But if it cant be finish on time, when sch reopens, all the work comes in, it will be worse. Thus i just hope and i believed it will be done... yeah. I left his place in the evening, dropped by PS and bought Jay Chou latest CD, my 4th chinese cds i bought so far in my life. Shit..spent $18.90 for a cd containing 10 songs! But of all chinese artistes, mainly, i listen to Jay Chou...more RnB/pop...others...yeeeee... The other 3 are Jay Chou 4th album, Zhang Zhi chen complication and David Tao complication cd (it suxs..waste my time...). Yup, my cds are all English, mostly are rock = Emo, punk, alternative.. however, the bands i listen to, their cds are not easy available in singapore, have to be exported..tat's the problem..each costing ard $30. So i try to download whatever i can...yup..tat's the music culture and the westernised culture im exposed to, tat's explain my chinese is quite lousy, none to say the least, my english too..hahaha.
That's my day for today...

Well, i wanted to write out my thoughts tonight, but i guess that my brain is a little switch off today, kind of tired+nua+sian+slack+lazy...yah...so i guess..i write it tomolo or whenever im free. Thoughts change every now n then.

okie...i think im turning into bed now.....

gd nite blog......

2004-08-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

Once again...back to this blog.. my 2nd blogging time..am i addicted to it? i guess not, perhaps, sch hasnt reopen yet, so i can afford to spend some time writing some craps and my thoughts into it.

today...another pretty normal day for me. Surprisingly, i had somewhat a good sleep ydae night, i woke up at 8am this morning BY MYSELF..wah...achievement is it? haha.. Well, i supposed to bring YC to meet wenyan to purchase a laptop under his name. Somewhat, it was cancelled out the last minute just before i stepped out of the house..thank goodness. I quickly called wenyan to inform him of the cancellation of the meeting, lucky he was out but not mid-way to school..but im wonder will he be pissed? i hope not, i know he will be alright, at most, i let him karate-chop my neck 'once' or treat him to durians at geylang..hee. Then after, i called angie too, she was about to leave home, so i managed to stop her. Thanks to my agile supple reflex movements of my arms n fingers...not bad right...monkey Ng??? Well, since i bathed in the morning, it's quite tempting to fall back on the bed and doze off...wat to do...i was labelled the HIPPO.. but i switched on my tv...scv channel 21...bang!!! it was showing the match between Chelsea and AC MILAN...i didnt noe that it was telecasted live this morning, so as usual, i got stuck on the sofa and my eyes glued to the tv, watching the whole match.. Chelsea is really getting stronger each season...a new coach..with new players.. a totally Star-studded team..even much better than Real Madrid liaoz...all thanks to abramovich n his assets. It's kind of like the CM soccer game...championship manager...with the power of money, anything is possible, everything will be in ur hands in controlled. BUT i believe that my darling team..MANUTD..will be a good as them even though the team is not starry enuff...HAIL the RED DEVILS !!!!.. After the match, read the newspapers, then i decided to take a short nap before waking up to meet angie at Sgoon Gardens hawker centre for lunch. I introduced her to my favourite stall which sells Pig Organs soup..it is one of the best or the best Zhu Zha tang i ever eaten so far in Singapore. Even angie gave the thumbs up even though she was eating her own species...hahahahaha...kidding. I love pig organs like the kidneys, livers, small & large intestines, stomach...DELICIOUS...DELICACY..not only this, i also eat the skin, ear, tongue...except the blood and the brain and the backside..needless to say. And these are high cholestrol stuffs...tat's why i dont get to eat them often at home, but do i care??? muahaha...I just eat if they are available in front of me..on the table..

After that, we went down to cityhall to look for meiyu who was selling flag over there as part of NUS flag day and engin oweek. Poor little ger "roaming" around the taxi stand area, trying to approach people to donate. Thank goodness, im not in it, i dun feel nice doing it as i 75% siam when i see flaggers...or im shy to approach pple???..oops..hee. I rather volunteer myself to do any other charity work. As a kind hearted young man, i dropped a coin into her container and took a sticker from her, this sticker is impt, dont underestimate its power, it is like a shield for you to siam whatever flaggers who keep approaching u..hahaha. We companied meiyu for lunch. While sitting down table, i observed, there are many many NUS students selling flag, i was kind of like...howhowhow...how to avoid..in the end, i put my thinking cap into use, i took ..around 10 stickers pasted on me..making me look like a cock..but would it matter? Jus for fun perhaps.. As usual, we crap crap crap joke joke joke..till meiyu went back to work...

Then after, went to turf city to walkwalk, not much of a crowd cos it was during weekdays, moreover all the horses work during the weekends... ^lame^...i noe that it is lame..just key in lah..no harm..After that, went home. I decided to go for a jog, sweat out a little then did a simple light workout at the stadium. Then it's Dinner time

Didnt feel too well after dinner, body aching, a little giddy...dunno why..out of the sudden...so i took a nap and here im online again...

Tonight...MANU vs PSV...for the vodaphone cup series...will MANU win???? let see.......

tat's all about my routine for today..i think it is quite long leh..i think i better shorten it the next blog and write in some useful stuffs, crappy stuffs and of cos my thoughts...rather than wat i did for today...

2004-08-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

My very first blog. Never expect to create a blog of my own this time. People once asked me to start blogging, i was like..har..what for..what's the purpose of throwing out our thoughts and our feelings out onto the web and let everyone see..do they appreciate what u write, will it make them understand u more literally or it is just to let them mock at you, treat it like a passerby sort of thing...read it when they are bored,nothing to do and such. I understand, to some people, it is one way to show their emotions out virtually thru words, why cant they just let out in reality, would be even better, would they feel better than writing everything in words, trying to explain what how they feel. At times or rather MOST times, words are misleading, they will lead to miscommunication and misunderstanding. Are blog meant to be one? or otherwise? To me, i wanna keep my thoughts to myself, sharing them with my close frens or pple who understands me well as a fren. If happiness surrounds me, i would share my joy and laughter around with frens. If anger or saddness engulfs me, i would rather let my frustrations or my unhappiness out, go to the sea and think thru,with the breeze blowing towards me or staying alone in my room, blasting rock/metal music just to forget what has happened or tok to a close fren who is willing to lend me a listening ear. Societal interaction is a must but it maybe provocative but does it shows that we have to resort to blogging totally? Im not totally against blogging, it maybe another propaganda of showing people how emotions/thoughts are sensitive that not many people would rather want to verbally gesticulate. Well,i respect whatever doings, just that publicizing my feelings n thoughts thru' blogging is not really what i favours but perhaps now it is the trend..."in-thing" where everyone is doing now. I believe the novelty will soon diminish..just that it is a matter of time.... Therefore, why not i, myself, follow the crowd..

Shit, this blog is quite tempting for me to write an essay of delicious crap which i havent do so for quite a while. Will i do it just for fun? Let's see...haha.

Ydae was Sunday. Second last sunday before school reopens. A pretty cool day, with skies overcasted with rainy clouds. Woke up late as usual, slept at 4am the night before...watching MANU vs ACMILAN..with milan winning thru penalties...^damn heng^...wonder what's fergie is thinking at times. Hope manu will perform better once the new EPL season starts on the 14th August and hope that i will vomit less blood and mop the floor lesser. Yup, back to my sunday. Went for a run..around 7~8km followed by a light workout at the stadium..tiring..i was wondering..how am i gonna run for the nike xtrail run or the singapore marathon. I am not the same old fit desmond where i used to be back in NS..running 10km and above seems like a breeze. But of cos, im determined to do so, i wanna achieve at least something which i want to experience once in my life especially now im young. After the run, dinner as usual, since my dad was away to Tanjong Pinang for a short business trip, i decided to take the car out to meet my odac gang; alvin,fangting,sophia,skee,meiyu and cheekong, for some tow huay and durian supper. Sinful night indeed!!! We ate 9 durians but it just couldnt get me high, maybe i need more powerful and stronger durians...double XO durian perhaps...ha.

As usual, i came home late, no carpark, so i parked on the other side, further away from my flat. Family all asleep when i came home, except my sister who was as usual, browsing thru' the webpage of korean hunks,dramas etc. I switched on my laptop and log into my MSN n ICQ as usual, trying to see who's online at tat time. Suddenly, SY msged me, i was quite surprised. it's been quite a while since she last msged me. Then, we chatted a bit, like around 5 to 10 mins. From the conversation, i gotta noe that SY has gotten attached to a guy whom she had a crush on and of cos with the guy having a crush on her too. Fast indeed. Of cos, in me, i was a little disappointed but im happy that she has finally decided to let her past relationship dissolved and gotten into a new one, starting afresh again. As a fren, i really hope that it will stays what she wanted and be blissfully happy in it. As for me, haha, im enjoying myself, enjoying what im doing now; crapping, joking, involving in activities etcetc,happy with what im now, with the company of my gd odac pals like alvin,meiyu,angelin,fangting,shaun,sophia etcetc and of cos my other gd frens around me, i feel that there are much things to anticipate in life, so many things that i wanna do and achieve step by step, time by time. Thus, moving on is the prime stepping stone. It is a lesson learnt but of cos with no regrets for the efforts i sincerely showed. That's life... I m What i m...simple isnt it...we ourselves are unique

Then, after idling in cyberspace for a while...I dozed off.........

The next morning..which was today..Mon's morning. As usual, monday's blue, one more week before sch reopens, I have to make my way down to ENGIN fac LT7a for my Electrical Engineering talk and thereafter travel to YIH store to settle my logistics stuff in preparation for handling over to the new term of pple taking over log cell.

As usual, i woke up late, kang qiong spider, i quickly washed up and zoom..off i go.. My talk was scheduled at 10.30am but i left home at around 10.15am...holy shit..i think i might as well be present for the reception where refreshments are served. Indeed, i waited for my buddy alvin and we began our feast like nobody business..haha. Typical simple food and of cos with the present of typical singaporean engin students around hogging in queues for food...okok..i admitted im part of it..but i m those ..relac relac ones...got holes, using my hands..in n out...the food i took. After that..i rushed over to YIH store, seeing mengmeng, tingting, zhuzhu and julia there, and they lamented at me, why m i late???? Am i? haha..perhaps..but i have a reason to be late...having refreshments outside LT7a..lame right. Yup..as usual, helped to arrange the stores neat and tidy, spick and span in the cupboardsm then after, coup a few tents up to workarea to check for detects as in holes. With me around, i started to be nua, lying on the tents, yawning, kiao ka etcetc but WAIT..before we could mention the word LAZY... ur wrong! I worked ok, loyal supporter of odac and logistic cell. Never fail to help out though i like to gek siao and action baylek. I helped in whatever i could. Yup, after that, around 4pm, we left and the gals went home, while me, i went to find my buddy alvin, taking a look,seeing what he and his engin oweek group were doing. Actually i supposed to be part of the councillor for oweek but i pulled out due to some circumstances which i declined to say..which i think that it can be organised and deal with and allows me to carry on in oweek..TOo bad..yup. Imptly, i enjoyed ODAC OAC 2004 and it was a success..yeah

okie...that's about it, i think it is quite long for a blog. I feel that it is not much crap, just of some of my routines for ydae and today.

What a way to start off my first blog!!!!!

three cheers n three cheers n three cheers to mR.D...yipee hurray..yippe hurray...